Post-Op Day 122 - Feeling fabulous!
I can’t believe it – another month is gone! You know, time just dragged by when I was on liquids only for the first six weeks post-op. Once I was able to eat again, life returned to its frantic pace!
Yesterday, I celebrated my four-month anniversary. My grand total was 73.5. Now that may look wrong since my 17-week total the day before was 74. Yup, that’s right – I was up .5 yesterday. I was so damn frustrated when I got on the scale and saw it was up. Then I realized that I AM on my period, so a gain of just .5 for that time of the month isn’t anything to complain about. Hehe
This past month I reallllly kicked some weight-loss butt with an 18-pound loss. That gallbladder removal really moved it along. Glad SOMETHING good could come out of that.
This morning when I weighed, I was down 1.5 from yesterday to FINALLY hit my 75-pound mark! Woo hoo! I also am finally below 250! For the scale to show me in the 240s was an unreal feeling! I just can’t believe I’ve gotten this far. God is so good! It’s been the most amazing thing to watch the scale go down: 320s, 310s, 300s, 290s, 280s, 270s, 260s, 250s and now here I am – the 240s! I sit here in awe just looking at those numbers. Wow.
Catching up with a great friend
On Wednesday, I had the pleasure of having dinner with my good friend Donna. We have one of those friendships where we can go a while without talking and pick right back up when we do see each other.
Donna and her hubby Darren had a baby late last year. Cassie is absolutely the most adorable baby ever. As I tell Donna, she has the most soulful eyes. I am very happy for them to be blessed like they have been. I know they are grateful for their blessings. I hope someday I too can be that blessed.
Donna hasn't seen me but one other time since surgery, so she can see a difference in me. She told me my boobs were gone. :-( That's been kind of a hard pill for me to swallow, since I've always loved having big boobs. In fact, I need to buy a smaller bra soon. It's heartbreaking. *waaaaaaaaaaah*
We had a great conversation about our struggles with weight. Some people just don't get it and there are people like Donna who do - and that's one of the many reasons why I feel as close to her as I do. We can talk candidly about our frustrations and struggles. Those who have never struggled with their weight should thank their lucky stars.
Donna looked fabulous with a sassy new haircut and highlights. I love her smile and her laugh - it's so...comfy. I can just sit and enjoy my time with her. She's such a great writer and insightful person. I've always admired that about her. I've also admired how she is so structured, on the ball and determined in life. I'm very blessed to have her as my friend.
Support-group power!
This week I reconnected with my support group online and in person. I am soooooooo glad I did. It’s really helped me get focused. On Thursday night, I made the two-hour roundtrip drive to my support group meeting. It was soooo worth it. Here’s the letter I posted in my support group:
I just wanted to post and say WOW - the support group meeting Thursday night was AWESOME!!!!!
Kimberly - great lesson! You definitely were "on" Girl!
The lesson really helped me focus on my goal weight - something I've always hesitated to commit to. I don't know why I have - perhaps the fear of not making it and being devastated? The fear of setting yet another goal only to fail at it once I commit to it? Who knows but it was definitely something I didn't realize I was avoiding.
That night I set my goal weight at 155 - which puts me at the top of the healthy BMI weight range for my height. That seems like such an unattainable goal in some ways. But, when I stop to think that I am 94 pounds from it - I realize I can definitely do it! I am almost half-way there! (I hit my 75-pound mark today, by the way! Yay for me!)
You also inspired me greatly with a single sentence: "Have the courage to tell yourself 'No.'" That hit me between the eyes. I have been practicing that courage ever since you said it.
For example, that next morning, I had an early morning meeting that I had to attend - so I was on a definite timeline. Since I went to bed late because of going to the support group meeting, I wanted to sleep in just a little longer and just skip my morning walk. Normally, I would have. This time, I told myself "No" and got my big sexy butt outta the bed.
The walk was wonderful too! The sun hadn't come up and the breeze was just perfect. It was a wonderful moment in time I would have missed if I hadn't had the courage to tell myself no. So, thank you for that inspiration Kimberly!
It was also great to see so many beautiful familiar faces there - Linda, Sher, Lucy and of course Kimberly! Donna T. - I wanted to meet you in person, but I didn't get a chance to! Also, it was great to see new beautiful faces and hear some great insight! Also, I want to thank Denise for the tip she gave me.
Yes it is a struggle to get across town during rush hour on a Thursday - however, it was sooooooooooooo worth it! I will always try to make it.
Anyway, just wanted to post about it before it got to be too untimely. hehe
I hope everyone is doing fabulous!
xoxo
Melissa
324/249/155
Dr. Naaman LAP RNY-12/29/04
Hot hot hot!
On Thursday, I wore some clothes that fit. Haha I know that sounds weird, but as you shrink, you don’t realize how much your clothes look baggy until you wear something that does fit. I felt very…hot that day.
Now before I go on, I have to say that even at my highest weight, I felt sexy. Those who know me in real life or by reading this journal, know that I feel sexy comes in all sizes. I never let myself bite into the rotten apple that society tries to feed us about you have to be thin to be sexy. I embraced my sexuality then and I continue to do so.
Now back to Thursday…there’s just some days you feel sexier than others. That was one of those days. I just felt “ON.” I guess it showed. It seemed men were especially attentive then. For example:
I was standing in a doorway talking to my friend John and he kept staring at me. Then he asked how I was doing. I laughed and said – “Losing weight!” He said, "You look really great." Then he goes... "Why did I have to get married?"
I said..."uhhh I dunno..."
He then goes, "You and I could have hooked up!"
I laughed and said, "We would kill each other after two hours."
He said, "Yeah but we could get together once a week for a late-night rendezvous."
I was speechless because that’s such an out of character thing for him to say. So I laughed it off and said, "Well tell your wife hi for me. See you later!"
Then I was telling my other friend John about it, and he said he knew what John meant – “You’re gorgeous Babe! There’s no doubting that.”
Then he said one his employees said yesterday: "When's that lady coming to see you John?"
He replied, "Who are you talking about Brian?"
Brian said: "You know, that really pretty blonde woman - Melissa."
John said: "Well she will be over in the next few days."
And Brian goes: "I wish she would divorce her husband and marry me!"
Isn’t that hysterical? Actually, Brian is very sweet. He is definitely a bypass candidate. He probably weighs like 400 pounds. I always make it a point to say hi to him or talk to him. I know people make fun of him and it breaks my heart.
But anyway, all that made my day. I walked around thinking, “I’m the sexiest 250-pound woman ever!” haha (I’m not conceited – just cocky and REALLLLY SILLY!)
I called and told Scott all that was said. He’s so good – he takes it all in stride. He always has. He just agrees that I am hot and reminds me that I’ve always been that way to him. That’s good news for me – since I think HE IS hot as hell myself. That means we’re meant to be, huh? Two hot babes! *smile*
Connecting with others
Tonight I wrote a quick email to a fella who had his surgery the same month I did. He's already down 100+ pounds! http://www.obesityhelp.com/morbidobesity/profile.phtml?N=f1101745013 I just had to write and tell him Way to Go! He wrote me back the sweetest email that made Scott and me smile!
He said: WOW melissa you look great,,and sexy too..sorry hubbie..but she does look fantastic..lol..lol keep up the good work and keep me posted.god bless and have a good day..
ALSO: Big News! I received my first email from a journal reader I didn’t know I had! Diana – thanks for writing me! She is super sweet and she had her surgery the same day as me. I told her we’re bypass twins. I hope to meet her sometime.
It was so cool to know that someone reads this besides Scott and me. Haha If anyone else is reading this, please drop me a line or sign my guest book! I want to connect with as many people as possible!
***
ok I am gonna go soak. I don’t know where this day went. Whew… Relaxing days always fly by, don’t they? God please keep blessing me and please bless everyone on this amazing journey!
Yesterday, I celebrated my four-month anniversary. My grand total was 73.5. Now that may look wrong since my 17-week total the day before was 74. Yup, that’s right – I was up .5 yesterday. I was so damn frustrated when I got on the scale and saw it was up. Then I realized that I AM on my period, so a gain of just .5 for that time of the month isn’t anything to complain about. Hehe
This past month I reallllly kicked some weight-loss butt with an 18-pound loss. That gallbladder removal really moved it along. Glad SOMETHING good could come out of that.
This morning when I weighed, I was down 1.5 from yesterday to FINALLY hit my 75-pound mark! Woo hoo! I also am finally below 250! For the scale to show me in the 240s was an unreal feeling! I just can’t believe I’ve gotten this far. God is so good! It’s been the most amazing thing to watch the scale go down: 320s, 310s, 300s, 290s, 280s, 270s, 260s, 250s and now here I am – the 240s! I sit here in awe just looking at those numbers. Wow.
Catching up with a great friend
On Wednesday, I had the pleasure of having dinner with my good friend Donna. We have one of those friendships where we can go a while without talking and pick right back up when we do see each other.
Donna and her hubby Darren had a baby late last year. Cassie is absolutely the most adorable baby ever. As I tell Donna, she has the most soulful eyes. I am very happy for them to be blessed like they have been. I know they are grateful for their blessings. I hope someday I too can be that blessed.
Donna hasn't seen me but one other time since surgery, so she can see a difference in me. She told me my boobs were gone. :-( That's been kind of a hard pill for me to swallow, since I've always loved having big boobs. In fact, I need to buy a smaller bra soon. It's heartbreaking. *waaaaaaaaaaah*
We had a great conversation about our struggles with weight. Some people just don't get it and there are people like Donna who do - and that's one of the many reasons why I feel as close to her as I do. We can talk candidly about our frustrations and struggles. Those who have never struggled with their weight should thank their lucky stars.
Donna looked fabulous with a sassy new haircut and highlights. I love her smile and her laugh - it's so...comfy. I can just sit and enjoy my time with her. She's such a great writer and insightful person. I've always admired that about her. I've also admired how she is so structured, on the ball and determined in life. I'm very blessed to have her as my friend.
Support-group power!
This week I reconnected with my support group online and in person. I am soooooooo glad I did. It’s really helped me get focused. On Thursday night, I made the two-hour roundtrip drive to my support group meeting. It was soooo worth it. Here’s the letter I posted in my support group:
I just wanted to post and say WOW - the support group meeting Thursday night was AWESOME!!!!!
Kimberly - great lesson! You definitely were "on" Girl!
The lesson really helped me focus on my goal weight - something I've always hesitated to commit to. I don't know why I have - perhaps the fear of not making it and being devastated? The fear of setting yet another goal only to fail at it once I commit to it? Who knows but it was definitely something I didn't realize I was avoiding.
That night I set my goal weight at 155 - which puts me at the top of the healthy BMI weight range for my height. That seems like such an unattainable goal in some ways. But, when I stop to think that I am 94 pounds from it - I realize I can definitely do it! I am almost half-way there! (I hit my 75-pound mark today, by the way! Yay for me!)
You also inspired me greatly with a single sentence: "Have the courage to tell yourself 'No.'" That hit me between the eyes. I have been practicing that courage ever since you said it.
For example, that next morning, I had an early morning meeting that I had to attend - so I was on a definite timeline. Since I went to bed late because of going to the support group meeting, I wanted to sleep in just a little longer and just skip my morning walk. Normally, I would have. This time, I told myself "No" and got my big sexy butt outta the bed.
The walk was wonderful too! The sun hadn't come up and the breeze was just perfect. It was a wonderful moment in time I would have missed if I hadn't had the courage to tell myself no. So, thank you for that inspiration Kimberly!
It was also great to see so many beautiful familiar faces there - Linda, Sher, Lucy and of course Kimberly! Donna T. - I wanted to meet you in person, but I didn't get a chance to! Also, it was great to see new beautiful faces and hear some great insight! Also, I want to thank Denise for the tip she gave me.
Yes it is a struggle to get across town during rush hour on a Thursday - however, it was sooooooooooooo worth it! I will always try to make it.
Anyway, just wanted to post about it before it got to be too untimely. hehe
I hope everyone is doing fabulous!
xoxo
Melissa
324/249/155
Dr. Naaman LAP RNY-12/29/04
Hot hot hot!
On Thursday, I wore some clothes that fit. Haha I know that sounds weird, but as you shrink, you don’t realize how much your clothes look baggy until you wear something that does fit. I felt very…hot that day.
Now before I go on, I have to say that even at my highest weight, I felt sexy. Those who know me in real life or by reading this journal, know that I feel sexy comes in all sizes. I never let myself bite into the rotten apple that society tries to feed us about you have to be thin to be sexy. I embraced my sexuality then and I continue to do so.
Now back to Thursday…there’s just some days you feel sexier than others. That was one of those days. I just felt “ON.” I guess it showed. It seemed men were especially attentive then. For example:
I was standing in a doorway talking to my friend John and he kept staring at me. Then he asked how I was doing. I laughed and said – “Losing weight!” He said, "You look really great." Then he goes... "Why did I have to get married?"
I said..."uhhh I dunno..."
He then goes, "You and I could have hooked up!"
I laughed and said, "We would kill each other after two hours."
He said, "Yeah but we could get together once a week for a late-night rendezvous."
I was speechless because that’s such an out of character thing for him to say. So I laughed it off and said, "Well tell your wife hi for me. See you later!"
Then I was telling my other friend John about it, and he said he knew what John meant – “You’re gorgeous Babe! There’s no doubting that.”
Then he said one his employees said yesterday: "When's that lady coming to see you John?"
He replied, "Who are you talking about Brian?"
Brian said: "You know, that really pretty blonde woman - Melissa."
John said: "Well she will be over in the next few days."
And Brian goes: "I wish she would divorce her husband and marry me!"
Isn’t that hysterical? Actually, Brian is very sweet. He is definitely a bypass candidate. He probably weighs like 400 pounds. I always make it a point to say hi to him or talk to him. I know people make fun of him and it breaks my heart.
But anyway, all that made my day. I walked around thinking, “I’m the sexiest 250-pound woman ever!” haha (I’m not conceited – just cocky and REALLLLY SILLY!)
I called and told Scott all that was said. He’s so good – he takes it all in stride. He always has. He just agrees that I am hot and reminds me that I’ve always been that way to him. That’s good news for me – since I think HE IS hot as hell myself. That means we’re meant to be, huh? Two hot babes! *smile*
Connecting with others
Tonight I wrote a quick email to a fella who had his surgery the same month I did. He's already down 100+ pounds! http://www.obesityhelp.com/morbidobesity/profile.phtml?N=f1101745013 I just had to write and tell him Way to Go! He wrote me back the sweetest email that made Scott and me smile!
He said: WOW melissa you look great,,and sexy too..sorry hubbie..but she does look fantastic..lol..lol keep up the good work and keep me posted.god bless and have a good day..
ALSO: Big News! I received my first email from a journal reader I didn’t know I had! Diana – thanks for writing me! She is super sweet and she had her surgery the same day as me. I told her we’re bypass twins. I hope to meet her sometime.
It was so cool to know that someone reads this besides Scott and me. Haha If anyone else is reading this, please drop me a line or sign my guest book! I want to connect with as many people as possible!
***
ok I am gonna go soak. I don’t know where this day went. Whew… Relaxing days always fly by, don’t they? God please keep blessing me and please bless everyone on this amazing journey!
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